ups and downs

this week has totally sucked.
every time i go 10 steps to the front , 
the drama and sh*t follows me and throws me 1000 steps back.
why why why maaannnn
and i know i sound like a damn drama queen.
but my whole damn life ive been struggling with sh*t.
and i got to a point where i thought f**ck it. 
it makes me into a strong person that i am still growing into.
if i play the cards right , the way its been giving , maybe it will go good.
and it will make me a strong person.
i could have  just sat on my ass ,And pissed and moaned.
but i dont want to do that,
but this week sucked sooo bad it almost made me give up.
but im not about to give up. NEVAAAAAHHH


thats the fighter in me.
and the fighter in me is ready for round 1000000000000000000000 LMAO
they can throw all kindsa sh* at me , im not giving up.
will i get depressed sure , will i feel the need to scream ,cry , yell curse like a !@#$%^&*
yeah that can happen.
but after i fall , im standing back up.


sounds dumb but like i said before music is my savior.
eminem's music is my savior.
and thats not a joke , or lie.
that real life to me.
but my mother and my friends-sisters jessica and jennifer and my niece keysha
they are my saviors to.
they understand me and suport me in anything i do.
and when i need someone they are there ,


and recently ive met some new people , that know exacly what im going through and how i feel.
these ladies have been through there own personal issues , like me.
these ladies have chanced my life.
in a good way.
and im thankin god every day that he sended me to these beautiful smart great ladies.
because of them i finally got focus in my life.
and finally i gained some new great friends , thank u god.


THANK YOU GOD FOR THE GREAT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE.
 my mother
my friend-sisters jessica & jennifer
 my niece keysha
and my new great friends ive met this end last year en begin this year.

MY STRENGHT COMES FROM KNOWING I GOT THE GREATEST PEOPLE BEHIND ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY,


I WILL NOT GIVE UP. HOW BAD IT MAY GET . AND HOW DEPRESSED I MAY GET.
I WILL NOT GIVE UP.


NEITHER SHOULD YOU !!!!!
WHATEVER YOU ARE FACING ( DON'T GIVE UP)

XOXOX

NADIA