heeeey people..
so how has your week ?!
my week was okej..this week i became 25..
and with that age i also got more responebility and relisation that i still have unfinished business,
and mainly with my pops..
so i wrote a letter with everything i wanted to say.
ive kept it real no fakeness..i said everything without holding back.
cause everything i wanna say i cannot say in real life.
not because he's not alive..well i dont know..i havent seen this man in mmm forever i quess.
i dont know if he is still on this earth..
and honestly i dont care.. yeah i know hard words ha!!
but i think if you have been tru what ive been tru with anybody parent(s) lover(s) vriend(s) whatever..
you would know that if someone hurts you ...and leaves you for dead (figurly speaking)
pain so hars that you dont feel like waking up..and pain soo deep you think its your fault.
pain so deep you wanna go to rehad cause the stress and the ones that caused it is your drug..
pain so deep you fall into a deep depression..
you get a addiction food drugs alchol. whatever...
pain only you and me can feel..and people that have been tru it..
but i think alot can understand what im sayin.
sad is it.....
but what i was sayin i was wrote a letter with my feelings , how i felt no holding back..
cause i honestly dont care anymore what he thinks or feels..
he never cared 4 me so why should i care..
this is part of my grieving process..
i need to face up to it and let myself breath..
i thought it was gonna take a mirical to bring me back..
no it takes alot of fighting ...and alot of..facing up to the mess that created the whole drama...
im facing up to it..
and i hope some of you that are going tru whatever it may be..
i hope you and me will face it together..cause i believe we can.
i know im gonna do it.. ARE YOU?!
dont let hate/pain/depression/ get to you..
xoxoxo
nadia
rihanna rehab
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