x-mas ( time to think )

christmas is almost here, and for me personaly its time to not only enjoy this holliday with my loved ones but its also time to think to think about what have i done in 2010 and other years, and what can i do to inprove myself and do beter next time around.
it has not been easy in the past and its still not easy sometimes.
but im thankfull for the gooddays i had and the strenght i had when i needed it.
christmas has that effect on me .
cause i wanna do beter next year , not that i have been doing my best this year lord knows i tried to do the best i can to get everything outta life i can.
but i believe there are still things i have missed cause of the drama and bad stuff that happend.

its really scary how sometimes your past can creep up on you when you least expect it.
and it slaps you in the face , so you get knocked out and miss some things.
but next year i wanna leave it behind me.. at least i wanna try to do that.

im not the only one that struggles with some hard things in life.
that life throughs at you..,
and i wanna say to the people that had it hard and tough year.
be strong , hold on ,
fight for your life,
and i have learned not everyday will be a happy day.
but it can be a okay day , a day that makes you relize that after all you have been through doesnt matter what ,
 you are still standing.
and that day may not be a happy day but it will be a im still standing day.
and you should be damn proud of that.

cause the people that have been through hell and back.
and knew nothing but sadness and anger yes you deserve to be on top .
and me and my mom have been through hell and back and all we knew where sadness and anger days,
yes we will get on top of it.. we will survive ..us and you..we will.
cause i believe .

so whatever you are facing in your life.
remember you are not alone.
and be strong , hold on.

think about what you wanna do in your life .
and think about the things you are thankfull for.
and never think you are not worth it.
people that pull you down want to pull you down cause they are  down and want to step on people to get somewhere.
but nevermind them do good to you .for you

yeah christmas makes me think.,
but think about what u wanna do.
it can be anything dreams , goals things you wanna do .
go think about it..maybe it will work out..