2011

hey wazzup?!
so how was your christmas , mine was chill just the way i like it ..
exept for the fact my best friend called crying about her man and that something happend.
it made me sad to hear her so upset..,
she is pregnant and soon she will be mommy and me ill be auntie ,
and im soo excited for her , i just hope that her pain will fade and she will be happy .
so i hope in 2011 she will find what she is looking for , and you know if you wanna talk im here.

so jessi girl if you read this i hope you and your babydaddy can work sh*t out and you'll be happy .

my other best friend wants to get pregnant .
and next year she will try to get a child and ill be auntie again ( love that)
she is a hard working , honest , sweet girl that i know.
and jennifer if read this girl i hope you get the child you always wanted .
i will pray for you and tim ,
i like you both so much..
you are my family
jen i hope 2011 will be a good year for you.,
and im always here for you if u need me

theze girls are my best friends , my family , my sisters.

2011 is almost here and time to leave all that bullsh*t drama of last time behind.
and no more new year's resolutions ,
no more....promises
no more ,...

i truly hope that 2011 will be beter ,
but i gotta be honest 2010 was aight personaly sometimes.
yeah there was drama , but the way i have acted on it ! was strong..,
yeah i had times i snapt , like on my grandma's birthday .
and how i snapt on my aunt , yeah she is far from perfect but i am not perfect neither.
she and me shoulda just face the fact the both of us are to blaim for the outbursts sometimes.
and im sorry that i have over reacted ., but i do not regret sayin what i said.
look she and me are both to blaim , and that is the end of it.
im letting it go. im gonna try to be more calm and let my anger to the drama go.
im not gonna promise that im gonna keep my mouth shut if something dissrespectfull is being said.
that is the shady side of me , if i hear dissrespect or people that talk me or my mom down ,
i will stand up , and my hair will stand up like a cat and i will attack like a pittbull.
and if the dissrespect keeps going , i will eat you up like a shark (LMAO )
i know its weird , but that is how i can explain it ..,

the only thing i know that is not gonna get beter is financial thing..,
i heard that its gonna get worse , so damn me and my mom need to make more sacrifices ,
and i hate that ,  i was hopin that 2011 was gonna be beter in the financial sector.
but f*ck it..
it feels like the rich are gonna get richer and the poor , poorer ,
but im ready to fight , and we are gonna make it.. hopefully.,

and next year im getting ready to face my past.
i dont know why i am saying this to you ,
but i think its good to be just honest and be me..,
im ready to face the past and get over it..,
im takin my life back.

sometimes some things in the past can get a hold on you.
and when you get to point you get stuck ,
and that point is like hell.,
you see the world moving and you are stuck in the same place.
its a waist of time.,
be boss of it..and demand your own soul back and take your life back.
im gonna do it..

and to some this may sound dumb.,
but the people that are stuck in life no matter what happend ,
they know what im talkin about.,
we are gonna get out of this .,
i refuse to sit here and be locked 25 to life because of this stupid ass past ,
and let that dumb ass past stalk me like a stalker.,
im over it and 2011 is the time im gonna fight it..,

one more thing
i hope 2011 will be good for you to.,
whatever you are facing you are not alone.,
and keep faith that 2011 will be beter..,

much love & respect

xoxoxo-nadia