well tomorow is my 25th birthday,,,
yup im feeling old LMFAO haha
im not really looking forward to my b-day cause in the past....
when i was a little girl my b-days havent been fun ,
dont get me wrong there where some b-days that where totaly awesome..just me and my friends.
but when i was little i could remember a couple of b-day where my pops screwed my party up.
by yelling at me..cause of some random shit..
who does that..wich parent act like that..at there own kid ..i did not do anything wrong..
but he kept on yelling....but f**ck it...that was then..and now..
when i got older me and my moms moved....
and cause of my previous messed up b-days i was hoping for a normal family gathering..
i dont need no gifts NO REALLY ....i dont need them
i just wanted my normal family..
a family that cared for me enought to acctuly show up and love me..
and that was what i got ...
till my 18th b-day...
they said that me and my moms never showed up or called THAT WAS AND IS NOT TRUE..
we did show up eventho we did not have much money we showed up...
but to make the story shorter the family grew apart..and i barely see them..
not even on b-days...
the only ones that i see was my 2 bestes friends and my grandma and my momma...
that was a change from way back in the day where i had huge parties..
to a small intimate party..
i dont mind i rather spend my b-day with people that really care and love me.
then people that make drama and feel like they need to be here ...
no doesnt matter if its you or them you gotta want something to do it right??!
so to me it does not matter..
i love the people i have in my life..
jessica jennifer mom and grandma...i love theze people with all my heart..
this is my family..
my heart...
to everyone that has a small family or feels lonely around this time of year b-day or other hollidays
dont feel sad or lonely..
cause even if u have one person in your life that loves you and you love them..
then thats all that matters..
f*ck the big stuff and the gifts and the other things..
spending time with people that love you.
and think you are worth it to acctuly show up for..
and the people that love you no matter what..the good the bad the ugly..
thats the people you should cherish...
but i gotta go i have some stuff to do for tomorow..
so im out...
AH MAN THE BIG 25 ..LOL
oyeah
my alterego LMFAO shady becomes 15 tomorow haha 4real ..
NADIA = 25
SHADY = 15
thnx 4 stoppin by
i appriciate it...
till next time
ill be back
xoxoxo nadia
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