i am nadiaah

this week hasnt even started yet and its been bussy...pffff.
and its been f****cked... yeah i had a messed up weekend.
but im not gonna let it spoil my life, so this week my washingmachine broke down,
i was like OH MY GOD NOOOOOOO i dont have that much money to buy one now..
yeah i have to save up cash to get that sh*t..
( im not rich) like the rest of the world me and my momma are struggling to survive.
we dont cry or b*tch about it. we go with the flow..
but when stuff like this happens like your expensive stuff in house breaks down.
and your low on cash . your thinkin how the hell im i supost to get that and pay the damn rent.
and pay the electric bill. and other bills. yup i get to enjoy that piece in life like the others.

i acctuly saved up money to get this damn computer ..
it was to exspensive for me to buy this.
but thank god i had patience and in 2006 i got my first laptop this one..im writing on.
so if i want something exspensive or need it i got to save ..
like so many others.
the economie is still not going that good but f***k it..
im not gonna bore you with that crap.

but i was running around and lookin for some budget places that i have heard of.
that sell household stuff for a budget.
and i got lucky
i found a washingmachine for a price that was thank god low..
and the machine is doing great..
so im happy again..
man i cannot see myself without that thing..
i know it sounds stupid.
but when i was younger i think i was 13 i remember me and my mom had to handwash everything. (YES ITS TRUE) i know its not bad or anything.
but now that my mother is getting worse with her osteoarthritis the washingmachine is so much beter for her..
so im glad.. i got to do this for her and still be in the budget..
i know some people may think im cheap but im not.

people that dont have much money will agree with me on this maybe.
that when stuff in the house breaks down..
your starting to panic cause if your struggling to get by .
and pay the rent and other bills your thinkin how the hell am i supost to pay for that.
and i realy need that..
and you dont want to borow money or get a loan.
cause you dont want to get into a big debt.

so trying to save up or just reachersing if there is a budget place is a good thing.
cause getting loans is not always a good thing and speccialy when you cannot afford to pay the monthly payments to get that loan of your ass.

but there is no shame in addmiting you need to save up ..
i feel more pride in the fact im doing it on my own.
and dont need no loan ..
so theres no shame in that.

but im out
ill be back..

xoxoxo
nadia