HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA ( R.I.P.)

today the 24th woud have been your 75th birthday,
i did not wanna remember this day cause if i do,
i also remember i miss you, and the pain in my heart by missing you,
i wish you woud have been here,
you woud have been so proud of me,
im doing beter now, im starting over, putting my past behind me,
if you where still here i woud have told you today happy birthday and give you a poem i made for you,
a poem that showed how much i love you,
of all the grandchilderen, you alway gave me the feeling you believed in me the most, you never said i love you to anyone, when i was 12 you and me made a wooden heart together that was your way of saying i love you to me,

i cherished the moment, cause you where a father to me i never had, eventho you made loving you sometimes so hard, i never stoped,
you never stayed mad at me for long if i did something,
you came and got me when i needed to be picked up,
you always told me never to give up,
and don't be a quitter,
in your own way you told me live leasons,
you where a man who never said his feelings,
never really showed it, but sometimes you let me mom and grandma know you loved us,

you said it in words the last time i saw you,
the cancer had spread in your body and docters was telling us you had weeks to live,
you where in the hospital .
me and mom and uncle nico visited you.
i was so glad to see you,
and give you news that i just got a job,
and i was gonna start that week,
i gave you that news,
you looked so proud of me,
you looked at me and said i love you,
i was suprised you never said it before,
and i said it back,
you looked so proud,
we spoke, we looked at eachother,
when we left .
you winked at me, gave me a look of proudness,
and never knowing that was the last day i woud ever see you again,
cause the week i had to work i did not get to see you,
my week went soo great,
i wanted to tell you of my first week,
i coud not wait to tell you, of my hard work i did,
and the new people ive met,

but when i wanted to come,
i coud not come cause you left,
i never had the chance to tell you,
cause you had died the 10th of july.

i miss you, i love you.

happy birthday grandpa

i will never forget you

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