love always

love always

i know it sounds sooo grazy and messed up,and so stupid. that's what i thought to when a friend of mine was in that situation,i was like get over it , or pick one, dang girl.but now im in that shit,and the stupid part is i did not see it coming,it was like bammn,let me explain, there is this one guy i know, his name is patrick , i known him from highschool. i liked him, we picked on eachtouther, and when he was with me he was so sweet but when his friends came , he was a asshole, a idiot, tryna make me jealous by dating my friends yeah thats right my friends,( yes he did like me like i liked him)he did it to fuck with me, yeah weird huh,but we never got the chance to date or become something or even try,when highschool ended. i slowly got over him.and i enjoyed my life with my friends and embraced single life, and then i met this guy who works at a record store not so long ago,his name is ( D ) he is so cute and sweet,so nice, he likes me. he flirts with me,he is so shy and so sweet, and i fel for him.and i was finaly picking up life , falling in love with another man, and feeling good,.but this all got to a twist, when i had to go somewhere i accidentally ran into patrick my highschool crush, and he looked at me and i looked at him, and it was like we knew,we both felt the same again at that split seconde that we saw eachother,i still hate his ass for what he has done to me.i will never forget, he made me feel soo small.and this guy i just met ( D )and this guy likes me for me, and patrick never cared sure he loved and liked me.
how sude i say it. patrick and i hade a love hate thing going on, yup. fighting and then being sweet to eachother, and then back and forth.and the most of the times he started that whole shit, and i just fuckin went along.how messed up that sounds,at school they always called us ike and tina or eminem and kim, and honestly patrick will always have a place in my heart , but not like it used to be, i fel in love with someone else,im still falling, and falling,.cause this guy is real. himself. pure.doesnt give a fuck, and i like that.
but the fact stull remanse in my heart im tryna move on, but the teenage loveaffaire is still burning like a fire, but the new man in my life, is making me fall. i did not feel this way since patrick.i never knew i woud fall again,and then ( D ) came into my life,love is a strange thing,it's a roller coaster,and the stupid part is if u aint lookin .cupid will hit u with his arrow in ya butt,yup believe that, cupid and his damn arrow