fit in

i have a feeling i don't fit in ,
in 2011 i got to know some great new people.,
and we got to be great friends. 
and with some i get along fine. but with some i get this weird feeling ,the feeling i don't fit in with them,
we are all the same..but yet somehow i feel so diffrent..
and it starts with the age diffrence and lifestyle diffrence.
i am 27 and they are above the 35 and i am a eminem fan and hip hop lover.
but i dont think thats the problem tho.,
i think it may be in my head.

but why can i not shake the feeling i do not fit in anymore.
                         (**sigh**)  
these people are great people and they have treated me with respect and love.
and i did to., 
i never had this feeling until last wensday.,
i felt like i did not fit in with them.,
and that maybe they are beter off without someone like me.
cause to be honest., we do not have so much in commen ,
but i dont wanna think that way,..cause these people have been great.
and i dont wanna give up.
cause once you got me as a friend..you will never be left..i am a loyal true person.,
but i am also a #bosslady lmao.., yeah in the good way tho.
i can be loud., i can swear like a sailor..but at the end im a good person.
and im not saying this because im sitting here confincing you i am,
caus truly i am a good person , i have my flaws. but i do not or will i ever denie my flaws.

and now its hitting me in the face maybe that is also one of my flaws.
thinkin im not good enough for someone.
thinking people will not like me because of my flaws.
maybe that is why i feel what i feel.
i learned that is someone cannot accept you for the way you are ., they do not deserve  you at your best
and they do not deserve to be in your life.,

( **sigh**)
i think i got it..!!
because of my stupid flaws.
i feel like  this....i think that people will not like me because of my flaws.,
and who cares..if they don't like me and my flaws they do not deserve me in their live.
but the strange thing is..those great people did accept me.
they accepted me for the way i am and they accept my flaws.,

and i accept them..they way they are.
wow
i got my answer writing this....wow..
never happend to me..LMFAO

but anyways..
remember that if someone does not accept you for you..and dont love you for you.
and hate your flaws..then they do not deserve you in their live.
cause real true honest people will be there regardless.
and i did not realize that these people accept me for me., and they dont give a f*ck about my flaws.
and not realizing made me look stupid., and that is one of my flaws., yupp!!! 
but anyways..
this is what i wanted to say cause it was bothering me.
but i did not realize that i got a break through, damn!!! whahahahaha

-Nadia-

have a great weekend