Merry Christmas

yeaahh we surivived the apocalypse lmfao,  (*just joking*)

but serriously its almost christmas ( duh )

 and the stores are packed full of people wanting to do the last christmas shopping,

i serriously hate when stores are that bussy, its like people are getting more and more greedy.

at least thats what my experience is at stores in holland in the holliday season.

last year i thought damn i forgot to buy a gift for someone, and i went to the city and i was going in naively.

thinkin nah lots of people allready did their christmas shopping,

HELLL NO...it was packed...it was like the store was giving stuff for free thats how packed it was,

and i could not even bend over to pick something up , or i could not even turn around,

and some people smelled like they havent showerd in yeaaarss,  ( try breathing in that )

i just wanted to get a little thing, cause lord knows i cannot buy expensive stuff,

and honestly i dont think and feel christmas is about getting stuff or buying it, or lots of food, and eating ,

no i know christmas is about spending time with people you love, and spending time however you want to spend it, 

you dont have to have lotss of people over for christmas, you dont have to,

cause christmas is about you, and what you wanna do, 

im celebrating christmas with my mother, 

cause honestly the bond between me and my other family aint that great, 

it has never been that great,  

but i love the way me and my mother spend christmas, 

we dont have a big show..we just chill..have fun and be us., and relax and enjoy the day.

with movies,. food ..and games,.  ( to some this may sound dumb)

but believe me ,  I celebrated Christmas so many time before in the past with the family,

it was a big ass show of who got the most gifts , and insults..

and most of the time the target of insults and being a puncing bag was my mom and me,

yeah that was christmas in that family, ( family on my moms side )

my dad side of the family never celebrated christmas, ( they come from north /south africa)

so i never celebrated that with them, but my pops never wanted to celebrate it,

eventho i am a child of 2 worlds, 

but not to make this story longger lmao.
i am glad to celebrate christmas the way i like, 

just being me, just chillin, no show , no insults, no nothing , just me , and my loved ones,

im just sad my sisters cannot be there to celebrate,

but maybe next year,

to all a merry christmas

 and a happy new year..

-Nadia-