i am nadiaah

im a city girl . living in village.
i was born and raised in a city.
but when i was 12 years old, me and my mom moved to where my grandparents lived.
and the rest of the family.
man that was weird ..
first living near the headcapital of the netherlands.
everything was big the stores , there where alot of playgrounds.
and i come here and there was a small lokal store to get your food and things u need,
a small drugstore and a petshop.
and a bicycle shop.
that was all. fast forward 13 years later. there are new houses coming.
new stores.and stuff , but the whole town still feels like that old village i came to when i was 11 .
i had so much fun here,
and i have the greatest neighbors anybody could ever ask for.

i love this town.
but i have to be honest i toke me some time to get over the whole .
homesickness thing..
me and my mom moved suttonly.
because of some things that happend with my father.
we never wanted to move.
but in the end that was the best choice we both ever made..

its hard to talk about why, we left ,
and maybe later i will say more if i finaly get over the whole thing.
im just carefull in what i say.. about some people..
cause honestly the wond is still verry fresh ..in some minds..
me i dont care anymore..but still im carefull,
but im mad to cause for a long ass time people tried to shut me up.
and im sick of that shit..
so long time ago when that happend i made a choice im gonna say WTF I WANT.
freedom of speech is still here ya know!!! (duh)

nobody should be scared to say stuff they want,.
but my thing is..
if u wanna say stuff say it respectfully..
cause if you say it like you dont give a f****
yeah you are getting slapped fore sure..
but im getting to far from my story LOL.

but what i was tryna say is..
its hard to make changes.. it can be moving to another place.
or getting a new job or new school or whatever ,,
just know that at that point you need to make the choice where your life is going!
life has a lotta doors. and not all of them are open, or can be easely openend,
kick the damn door in..to get where you need to be.
and altho change is hard ,
making choices and going on paths you have never been before thats life my friend.
and yeah im still learning myself.
i fall flatt on my ass sometimes ( imma be honest with that)
im not perfect. but knowing i can choose. what my next move is.
that makes me feel like i can take on the world...

xoxoxo
-nadia-