ending a memorie

today i heard a song that brought back memories,
memories of highschool days,
that song reminded me of my old highschool crush!
how much we had in common, and how much we wanted to be together,
but coud'nt be together, cause of the difference between to karakters,
we would fight and make up and do the same all over again!
we had a love/hate relation thing going on,
when he was around his friends he would act so cool and macho,
and with me he was a whole diffrent person, he was himself,
and i liked that in him, the thing i hated so bad was the macho terrible macho behavior, it was really bad,
i loved this dude and i know for a fact he loved me to,
but we where to diffrent to be together,
we could fight like ike and tina, ( YES NO JOKE)

he would hit me, and i would hit him back
i know what you are probebly thinking
how could you love someone like that,
let me tell you, before the hate there was just us,
just me and him,
he pissed me off by doing that to me,
and dating my close friends ( YES HE DID THAT TO)
i always ingnored it,
until i became friends with a girl who was new to the school,
at first he talked bad about her,
but al off a suden, weeks later when me and she became closer each day ,
he moved in and he liked her just out of the blue,

but i gotta admit ! that yes it was not all good,
but truly there where some good times,
between us,
we could be honest to eachother, we could be just ourself's,
we fit together, on a weird level,
but on a nother level we did not fit,
cause he was oil and i was fire,
and i am a woman with passion of music and live,
and he is just a guy who settels for less,
he thinks live is easy, and lives goes the way he wants,
and i know that live is a fight,
you need to struggle to survive sometimes,

i know how could a song get so much feeling out,
i think it's the memorie of the good,
that sparks the memorie!
and my memorie ended in a bus listing to this song,
knowing that him and me would never be together,
just because the love/hate thing,
i dont want that,
this song reminded me that im worth more then this guy!

and he needs a woman who will obey him and be a old fashion kinda girl.
nothing wrong with that ,
but it's just not me,
so i hope he will find her,

i hope i will find the love of my life,
but till now, my music is my biggest love,
but it will always be my love...
always was and always will....

and by this real life story i end my memorie,
the feelings are no longer here i had for him,
but the feelings for the memorie ,
will always remane,